good things, and sad things

just saw my school's production of hairspray tonight. it was so fabulous. great fun. i'm sad it's over.
usually when i go see shows, no matter how much i'm enjoying it, my attention span is having none of it by halfway through the second act. but i was sad when this was done!

it smells strangely like campfire smoke outside and also in my room.


i've been buying nail polish again... because that's my life. nail polish and bras. jesus what have i become.
(i have 340 colors...... of nail polish, not bras.)


i got three more grades.
for some reason, i lucked into taking psych classes that give virtually no homework.
so the only grades i'm getting are from my art classes. i got two more A's in computer graphics, and an A- in drawing, but it's also hanging on the wall.
i did a drawing of DE that i'm legit proud of (except for his face) but it's him in his boxers so nobody will be seeing that... (my professor did say that he's a cute boy though, haha!)


i still haven't been to the gym yet because my life is a joke, but who's surprised. not me.

on the bright(?) side, my body likes the weight it's at, which means unless i overeat to a ridiculous degree, i'm gonna stay at ~135 pounds just like always.

it's kind of nice having my body prefer a weight at a low-healthy level, but it's too high for my preference. and because my body likes being 135 pounds so much, it's so hard to get below that and stay there.

i was taking a quiz about body types (endomorph, ectomorph, mesomorph), and i still don't know which i am. i feel like i'm whichever one is the soft, feminine, curvy type (endomorph i think), but there was a question that had three options:
i have trouble gaining weight, i gain muscle easily, and i have trouble keeping weight off. i guess the third is the most accurate, but i don't have to work to maintain this weight. i have to work to lose weight.

i don't know.


so today (now) is unofficially 8 months for DE and i. it also marks the date at which he becomes officially my longest relationship (6.5 months). well, technically we have to make it all the way through today for that to be really official, but i don't think that'll be a problem.

~6 pm today is going to be weird.
that'll be about the time, 8 months ago, that we first kissed.
that'll be about the time, 2 years and a month and a day ago, that KW broke up with me (same time relative to relationship beginning)
and that'll be about the time, one year ago, that T killed himself.
it's going to be hard. all day is going to be hard.
i'm going to have to go visit his tree today.

after we planted his tree last year our advisor said that he'd look into getting a plaque to put by the tree, but that would probably happen this semester. ...it's this semester, and i want it to happen.


...now i'm out of things to say. sorry to end this on a sad note.