drunken boy drama

fuck life is hard sometimes


i went out with AD tonight because it was trivia night at a bar uptown, and right across the street they have dollar beers. really gross dollar beers, but for a dollar i won't complain too much.


so i finally met this guy that she'd been vaguely telling me about
and how she's not really sure if she likes him because she kind of does but also it's been a while since she's really liked anyone and he kind of reminds her of KW (also her ex, so that's no good) in some ways.
basically she wants to bang him, that much is certain.

so i met him tonight for trivia. he ROCKED at it. he totally owned the first category, and assisted massively with the other two categories. we tied for 3rd with 2 other groups but if he hadn't been there we'd have been in like last place.

and idk
he doesn't really remind me of KW. but i haven't seen some of the circumstances in which she says he acts like him. so i can believe it. but he reminds me STRONGLY of someone else that I CAN'T IDENTIFY AND IT'S SO ANNOYING. he reminds me SO MUCH of someone but i DON'T KNOW WHO.
but i guess he's pretty cute.

anyway, at the second bar he slid in next to me at the booth and AD made him switch with her. but after she went to the bathroom he wound up next to me again and before AD dragged him outside for a cigarette even though he doesn't smoke, he told me that i'm really pretty. and i think i might've told him that he's cute too, but i might not have.
but i know what i said was that i couldn't do anything, and he said "you can't do anything?" and i said that it was a long story.

later, before he left, he asked if the long story was AD. i said "and it's a long story." which was probably saying way too much already.

but he left with AD, so hopefully that went well.

but

basically
i hope that AD either decides that she does indeed like him and will pursue him as a romantic possibility
or she decides that she's actually not interested in him at all and doesn't mind if he's interested in me
not that he's legit interested in me
but like
he thinks i'm pretty, i think he's cute. that's enough to go on for me lol

no but i'm not going to fuck this up this time. i've (unintentionally) screwed over AD way too many times in the past. i won't do it again.