it's funny, being back home, back here in new york, makes me less inclined to stuff my face. being home just reduces my desire to eat, strengthens my desire to restrict and fast. it's fuckin' great.
maybe it's because of the great healthier food options, maybe it's not having a dining hall, maybe it's being surrounded by stylish skinny people, walking thinspo passing me daily on the streets.
maybe if i really devote myself for the remainder of my break (wow, it's already technically thursday) then i can keep it up when i head back to school.
i've got to get thin again, i'll show everyone at school just how good i can really look. and then some.
DE thinks i'm fine the way i am, how silly is he. he almost dated a cheerleader, he knows a good body. this is not one.
i just wanna be pretty, for fuck's sake.
...i just wanna be pretty...
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