my birthday in four days.

i'm thinking it's gonna go better this year. better than last year. last year was horrid.

DE got me a birthday present, and apparently had it planned for some time, even before we started officially dating. i was very surprised. i'm so bad at birthday presents, i'm impressed by people that can think of good stuff that easily.
apparently SW and DE had the same idea, actually, which is weird.


i went to DE's house to spend easter with his family this past weekend.



wow i totally forgot about this. started this last night.



so.
let's see.
the past few weeks here have been all about prepping for next year.
in 42 minutes, i register for fall semester.
on the fifth, we did the housing lottery, and our ideal plans for living next year got fucked up by the rooms blocked off for freshmen. so two people got booted to another house with other friends of ours.
after the housing lottery, DE and i realized how awesome it would be if i took the still-available single in that other house. so i ran down to the housing person and changed it.
a few days later, DE and DR were talking about how awesome it would be if they could live in the still-available double there, too. because that would fill the house, so no other people could get in, AND it would be all the friends that we all like.
and they decided they were going to do it. even though it's a dick move to SW. but why should they sacrifice a great year-long opportunity just so they don't hurt someone else's feelings, right? because this house is AWESOME. i'm so excited.
not looking forward to telling SW, but i won't be around for that. they're doing that on friday.



as for me?

i've been okay i guess.
actually, i've been mostly good. last night was unpleasant because everyone had a group council to discuss how to handle telling SW, and i was stuck on duty babysitting SW to make sure he didn't go downstairs to investigate. they didn't finish their discussion until an hour past when i wanted to go to bed, and i still had homework to finish for which i needed DE's opinion. so i was one cranky motherfucker. and then i found out a lot of my friends won't be going back to new york this summer, and then there were profane things written/drawn on my white board, and basically a lot of little things led to me crying myself to sleep for the first time in a pretty long while.


i haven't been eating as much, overall. i say this of course having just had a huge dinner, but i didn't eat anything else today.
it's so hard to eat in a pattern that will help my body get rid of this fat.
hopefully it'll be easier next year. i find that even if i buy helpful snacks, i rarely eat them because when i get hungry and munchy, i'm not in my room. but next year, i'll always be hanging out near my room! it'll be so great!


i'm gonna continue cleaning my room in the few minutes before i have to really buckle down and focus on preparing for registration.
wish me luck.