aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh

DE and i had a lovely weekend. SW was gone.
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anyway.
DE and i had a lovely weekend. because his roommate was gone, i spent the night on friday as well as saturday. having to sleep in my own bed alone last night was not fun. i'm looking forward to next year when we'll both ideally have singles, and ideally right next to each other.


this is hell week, one of several this semester, and it won't be the last.

tonight i have a paper to do, i have a neuroscience exam on friday, i have a drawing homework assignment due tomorrow and a class assignment due thursday....
i have to meet with my advisor some time this week because registration is next wednesday.
and out of nowhere, the honors housing process is happening thursday night. service hours were supposed to be completed before the housing process, but suddenly the housing process is happening about two weeks earlier than everyone expected it to. which is not cool. i only have 2/10 completed hours, and 5 more lined up.


saturday there was an honors trip and now pictures have gone up on facebook... which is horrifying. i've been tagged in 4. two i had to untag because i'm wearing HF's hoodie and i don't want him to see them and demand it back, and in the other two i look absolutely horrible! fat and awkward and stupid! DE insists that he doesn't see what i'm talking about, but oh my goodness they are horrendous.

it makes me never want to eat again. of course everyone says i'm overreacting, but i think this'll be good motivation.

my birthday's in two weeks, i have a dress i want to wear. it has to look great on me.
if i were about 10 pounds lighter i would wear my tailored polka dot dress because that is LOVELY and looked so good and fit me so well... when i was skinny. and it's a pretty good birthday dress.




shit it's 1:35 am and i haven't started this seven page paper due in eight hours.
FUCK, PANIC MODE ENGAGE.