no pain, no gain.

i guess this'll be a short post seeing as i'm already five minutes late for dinner and i still have to get dressed.


i hurt. so bad.

went to the gym on wednesday.
initially i was afraid i hadn't gone hard enough because i didn't hurt like last time, but then i remembered that it'd taken a day or so for the pain to kick in, and then i felt like a time bomb of pain waiting to go off.
and boy did it go off.

yesterday wasn't so bad, but today, i can barely walk. i did some weird machine that was supposed to work my inner thighs i guess (involved opening and closing my legs repeatedly; it was really awkward) and i can only attribute this pain to that. it's not even just soreness, that i have everywhere. this is actual, active pain. i was supposed to go to the gym again today, but i couldn't. it even hurts to sleep.

as soon as i feel better though, i'm going again. i also need to get more cardio in. my "trainer" friend, JM, tends not to focus on the cardio, but fuck that shit. i need my fat-blastin' cardio.

my eating's been more fucked up lately, and it's dumb of me to like that.
i've even recruited my friends that i hang out with a lot to stop giving me snacks when i'm in their room. i usually bitch about being hungry and wanting snacks for a while, but then shut the hell up, and the next day i feel so good for not having eaten.

so i keep eating my one meal a day, and finally not snacking myself to obesity later that night. between this and my actual desire to go to the gym, i hope i see results.


i was thinking this afternoon about how my friends had voted me the thinnest, the one that would ride in the little middle seat (before they realized my height was an inconvenience there). i still don't see HOW they reached such a conclusion. it's a mystery. i'm not even thin. i just don't understand.


okay.
i go dinner now.
today i had a little weight watchers snack bar for breakfast. 70 calories, apparently. and that's all it's been today.




there's some kind of stomach flu going around, according to the wellness center. i'm scared.


oh and by the way, i did not finish my work. i don't want to talk about that.
maybe i'll talk about school next time.