random shit and no patience

i am such a shameful fatty.

but let's talk about something else.


i'm currently working on a sociology paper that's not even due tomorrow, it's just more interesting than what's actually due tomorrow. is that sad? i'm doing work to put off doing work.

i already organized my whole nail polish drawer. i have so many. over a hundred. i sorted them by color and put them in a gradient as well as i could.


anyway.
my soc paper is about life factors (family, school experiences, race, gender, religion, and living in the US) that have influenced and shaped us. it's really fuckin' hard to write. not to think about, but to set down and write in a linear fashion.
i can't talk about how my gender influences me without talking about how my family and school experiences have influenced my gender's influence on me, for example.



ah fuck i did it again.
i started writing something and then got lost in interweb-land~




i wanna ...go home, i guess.
i'm tired of being here, SW is a pain in the ass. like not actively, i'm just completely and utterly sick of him. he's finally not being annoying toward me or about me, i just seem to have exhausted all my patience where he's concerned. i can no longer stand him at all. i don't even like to look at him. just grah. it's got me hanging out in my own room again, spending time alone, because i don't want to go over to my friends' suite where he is.
but my friend DE says that he understands, but doesn't want me to stop hanging out with him/the rest of them just because of SW.

there isn't even part of me that feels bad for being such a bitch because all of me is too busy being irritated by everything about him.
i'd hoped that the five SW-less weeks of winter break would recharge my patience battery but no. apparently it just spoiled me.
sigh.


we've also been trying to figure out what the living's gonna be like next year. because there is no way in hell i'm living with SW. i think i'm also gonna try to get a single, cuz i don't know any girls well enough to room with, and i don't wanna get a random roommate because that'll probably be all the rejects that nobody wants to live with.


hmph.
i should probably sleep.
melatonin time. i gotta get water. far.
good night.