asfkjaljf jury duty

PT is blocked by the court building's wifi.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY TIME HERE


fucking jury duty.
i best not get called.
it freaks me out to think a silly little girl like me could have any say in whether or not someone goes to PRISON.
who decided i'm a good person for this job?
whatever i choose will impact someone's life.
no thanks, too much power.





anyway. i really just came here to complain that PT's blocked. really. i brought my laptop in anticipation of wifi and i'm like, well, i can just lurk PT for 7 hours while i wait in this room with nobody to talk to.
and then i realized the chairs are all in rows and whoever's behind me could totally see my screen.
but then i was like AW HELL, they don't know who i am! and i bravely entered the URL.
redirected. like a bitch.
srsly wtf.
i don't see what the issue here is.


in other news, i got down to 121.4, which is technically my new lowest weight.
i weighed myself after breakfast & tea & shower this morning and i was 123.something but i'm discounting that because i was already dressed & full of the tea i had to speedily chug.
just a reference point. and after today's jury duty mini-fast hopefully i'll be less.
i really don't wanna get back to normal weight.

when i found out i'd be spending my time today sitting in a room, and there'd just be a lunch break, i was like "fuck yeah, i don't have to eat."
i'm really normal. suuuuper normal. nothing to see here, move along.

i've got this scene in my head where if i'm called and the attorneys are trying to decide if i should be on the jury, i could just be like "listen, i'm eating disordered and just ate a piece of bread so that's really all that's on my mind right now. how many calories do you think would be in that?" and they'll be like lolno.
but i wouldn't do that.
also i haven't eaten any bread. but any food will suffice there, even if i haven't eaten it.




goodness gracious i've only been here for like two hours and i feel like i've exhausted the entire content of the internet.
i'd do my last placement test but i don't wanna get started and then get called to panel (heaven forbid) and fail because the time ran out.
maybe i'll watch some online television.



i could be sleeping right now. damn adulthood.

at least i'm pretty sure i get paid. 40 dollars a day. this is almost more than i got paid for work. and that is why i'm here.


my friend got called for jury duty with me. same time, same place.
but she postponed. damn her.
i'd be all "haha all you bored people. i'm just chillin' here with my friend, nbd. hope we don't talk too loud."
i feel we missed out on a great opportunity. what are the odds i'm going to be called for jury duty with one of my best friends EVER AGAIN. slim.



i just wanna go for a walk. i've got half a mind to do laps around this assembly room. ...but i'm not going to. i'm not okay with being that odd in public.