tea appreciation achieved

i went to the harry potter times square discovery exhibition.

i jumped around with excitement. a lot. like the huge dork i am.

i threw quaffles through hoops. it made a dinging noise every time i got it in.

i hardcore want a ravenclaw banner for my dorm. that's right, i like ravenclaw. i'm not brave enough for gryffindor, anyway. and there's still some kickass people in ravenclaw, like luna lovegood, so there you go.

i got a time turner necklace. i know, you're super jealous.

i mark the hours, every one, nor have i yet outrun the sun
my use and value unto you are gauged by what you have to do

best focus i could get in the crap lighting of my bedroom. maybe i'll photograph it more later, to capture its great details. it spins and everything. apparently it's not supposed to? or maybe that was a different model. anyway, I'M SO PLEASED. it's like my new most treasured possession.




i went to dinner with my mother afterward.
italian. i actually had fettuccine champignon, with a cream sauce. why'd i do that to myself? because i really fucking wanted it. and focaccia bread, though it was quite thin thankfully.

i calculated everything on myfitnesspal, and i don't know exact values, what with it being a restaurant and everything, but my estimate is only about 753 for my entire dinner. i was estimating 900 to 1000, so that's a relief. with breakfast and the little exercise i did, that's a net total of 791. fuck yeah. and yesterday was 839.
i know it's still probably more than anyone that reads this. but to each his own, right? i'm still terrified of metabolism reduction.
i think yesterday was the first time in a while i didn't leave any food out of my diary. for a while i did because i felt so damn guilty. (if i did that, though, i'd also leave out exercise.)



i still haven't weighed myself.
i always feel too large and full and sloshy and wobbly to brave the scale. i always forget in the mornings. maybe tomorrow.




remember my tea training? epic success.
i basically had three cups of tea today. sleepytime (CUTEST WORD EVER! i feel like a four year old when i say it) tea at 5:30 in the morning, vanilla caramel when i woke up in the afternoon, and peppermint tea when i got home.
peppermint tea might be my favorite right now.
i really want to try cinnamon tea. i had apple cinnamon once but the apple flavor was annoying. i have to find a well-stocked supermarket.
SO EXCITED TO TEA SHOP.
i also need a cup that won't burn me. i'm using thick mugs and i still can't hold them. i don't understand those dainty little teacups... they're so thin, they can't be well-insulated...




oh, i forgot to tell you, didn't i?
the results came back from my blood retest. a while ago, actually. my thyroid is apparently under-active after all.

i call bullshit. i don't have any symptoms.
i mean, yeah, depression and tiredness are symptoms, but tiredness is also a symptom of depression itself and i've been depressed for seven years. this is not my first blood test. nobody's ever said anything before. fuckers.
i don't want the medication. i'm afraid of the side effects. except for the weight loss. that's the only upside. but everything else... really, no thank you.
....fuckers.



i'm actually oddly sleepy. but i want my sleepytime tea. i'll drink that while i do crosswords. :)
today was a good day. even though i had cream sauce on pasta. hot damn.