a day with EB

i slept over at EB's last night.
after the DG dinner/sleepover (i was good!) and therapy i hopped on a train into jersey.
he took me through a park and we sat on a bench by a reservoir, he taught me how to give a massage.
he took me to an empty parking lot behind his high school and literally dragged me from the passenger seat of his car and carried me to the driver's seat and forced me to attempt to drive. i have my permit but i've never been behind the wheel of a car before and it was utterly terrifying. i don't even think i touched the steering wheel.
then we ate at a jersey diner and went to his friend's house but didn't really talk to anyone because they really don't seem like his crowd.
he took me to a little spot so we could see the stars, he played me songs and taught me three chords on the guitar.
he was supposed to drive me back into the city so i could get home by 1:30, but instead i slept over because he had an appointment in the city in the morning. we slept through it.

we hugged a lot and cuddled a lot and snuggled a lot and kissed each others' faces, but nothing more happened. we slept in each others' arms, but nothing else happened. apparently i'm very soft and comfy. he's not much taller than me and weighs less, but i liked the feeling of his arms around me; i felt small.

i had a rather lovely time.
when we were comfy in his bed i couldn't help but think about what our friends would say if they could see us like that. the thought amused me greatly.


i don't know what's going on. i'm really extremely confused.

this is like the first time since late june we're both awake and not texting. it's very strange.



aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.
i'm not doing anything today or for most of tomorrow, until going up to KK's country house for the weekend. i'm afraid i'm going to miss EB, that'd be a terrible sign.

edit: he texted me. much better.