FATFATFAT

i'm sitting here in DE & SW's room currently freaking the fuck out

i am fat, so fat, so very very very fat
and this is the second time i've panicked about this today

i'm fat and lardy and blobby and SICKENING and GROSS AND JUST ARGGHHH FAT FAT FAT







i want to die. i want to cut. i want to vomit. i want to slice the fat off of me.
i want to not be so horrifyingly repulsive. i want to get out of my god damn prison of blubber.


and i don't know how to keep this all to myself
earlier DE was like "what's wrong" and i was like "i can't explain" and he was like "try?" and i was like "i don't wanna talk about it"
but that's a lie, i do want to talk about it, a lot, i just don't want anyone to know and that desire's a lot greater and that's why i'm here screaming to the empty spaces of the internet instead of confiding in the real, present, caring person next to me.
the empty spaces of the internet won't judge you, they won't stop you.