gotta get thin

I HAVE TO STOP EATING.
for fuck's sake.
i can't keep stuffing my fucking face like this.
i'm gross.
so so so gross.
why does DE like me, i don't get it at all.
why does he want to touch me.


AD's visiting me next weekend, i'm so psyched. but also afraid she'll be really super bored since this campus is often really super boring.
but then again, she'll probably get plenty of entertainment out of scaring my friends here.

i don't think i have anything else to say.

the other night i had a very small dinner at like 6:15 and then didn't eat again until lunch the next day at 12:30. if i can just keep that up.

i just want to be skinny, i just want to be pretty. why does nobody understand this?
some of my friends here are starting to give me shit for the whole being-upset-when-food-is-tasty thing.


this week coming up is NEDA. the women's issues group here is having a bunch of events for it.
i have so much work for this week, but i wanna go to all of them.