i rode a mechanical bull

i'm getting very lazy.
i'm like... "i should really email clo back... ughhhh too much effort i'll do it later."
..."i should really email my high school's CTO to tell them to forward my final high school/college credit transcript to my college... ughhhh too much effort i'll do it later."
..."i should really post on my blog... ughhhh too much effort i'll do it later."
except that last one is also hindered by shame.

instead of losing i gained two pounds over the weekend. (which put me at 127, BARF.)
SO MUCH FREE FOOD. churros, tacos, cheesesteaks... oh boy.
i can be strong about not buying food to eat. i am weak about simply not eating food that is in front of me.

i ate all my calories early yesterday, so i fasted for basically 24 hours after that. (i say basically because it was indeed 24 hours but for like 10 of those i was sleeping, does that count as fasting?)
got down to 125.2 again.
basically just binged right now.



i've told my mother not to buy any candy for easter. i think that's good.
she doesn't know i'm restricting, but she knows i'm trying to avoid binges, and sweet foods set me off.

i'm discovering a list of binge trigger foods:
-reese's eggs
-chocolate covered peeps
-marshmallows in general
-anything with jelly on it
-french onion sun chips

there's probably more.






i'm reading two books currently.
wasted (by marya hornbacher, of course)
and college girl, by patricia weitz.
if you're reading my blog, you're probably familiar with the former.
the latter's about a girl who transfers to uconn as a junior and blah blah blah.
my mom bought it, i read the blurb and it's like all about her losing her virginity and then losing her direction. groan. i don't mind the subject, i mind that my mother saw it and thought i'd like it. i'm sure her focus was mostly on the "college" aspect, but really?
it feels like my mom's giving me this book to say "be careful."
.....which is funny, considering i think she already thinks i've lost my virginity (which, you know, is true, but my mom doesn't need to be certain of that fact, thank you).




anyway. both of them i've just started. both of them i'm enjoying.

i have quite a list of books and shows to get to.
i still have KW's copy of hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, which he loaned to me when he discovered that he had entered a relationship with someone who had not read it. i still have it. i still haven't read it. i guess he's not getting that back....



currently i am downloading pictures onto my computer from spring fling.
i rode a mechanical bull. yes i did.
i fell off after 9 seconds. twice.
in my defense, i was wearing a skirt and tights. bad grip.

my friend falling off the bull.

tomorrow i'm going to play a game.
it's called "how long can you go without eating?"
i hope i win.