epic fail

oh boy oh boy oh boy what a failure am i.
(on the bright side, i'm not referring to anything food or body related?)

i was up until about 9 in the morning, then i passed out on my couch because it's "easier for me to wake up there." bullshit. i mean, i'm more likely to get up from a nap on the couch than i am from a nap on my bed, but that's not saying much.
i kept pushing back my wake-up time until eventually i gave up my plans for the day and slept until 8 pm.
i don't feel as miserable about it today as i did yesterday so maybe if i'm still tired (which i am right now) i'll actually go to sleep when it's dark out.
best case scenario: i've slept too much so i go to sleep around 1 am and wake up at 5 or 6 because i can't possibly sleep anymore. i don't see anything better than that happening.


so i missed my photo opportunity. today was nice. tomorrow will be snowy and sleety.
i don't want to take my camera out in that wet mess, but i also kind of REALLY do. i wonder how to keep it safe and clean. i shall see how wet it is tomorrow, and if it's very wet, i'll take my old POS P&S.
OH FUCK ME i have therapy tomorrow. i guess if i wanna get done what i want to get done, i'll HAVE to wake up at 6 am.
(i might be okay with that?)


also i'm doing a kind of self-run photography course and my starting package tried to come today but i slept through the damn delivery man ringing the intercom, like a boss failure. so i have to pick that up tomorrow. i'm very excited to begin. i'll have a reason to wake up in the morning. and by that, i actually mean, like, when the sun's up.

it's nearly 11 and i must go for my walk. i kind of feel like i cheated yesterday in my quest to leave the house every day, because i didn't go outside once i woke up from sleeping, but i got home and went to sleep around 11 in the morning, so i was definitely out that day. and a lot. but it doesn't feel right.



so. AZ'S MASTER PLAN for the day of WEDNESDAY, MARCH 23rd
7 am - wake up. consume moderately-sized bowl of crispix. commence showering and dressing process. check le weather! fashion a rain-shield from a plastic bag for my DSLR.
8:30 am - leave house. i'd say 7 am, but let's be realistic. i'll probably nap once i'm up. <-- reason i was late to school every day for two years
9:30 am - arrive at fort tryon park. commence photographing upon arrival. snack on chewy bar you have brought with you.
~11:30 am - get sufficiently cold enough to depart the park. the bus will take me straight to therapy in about 2 hours. or i can get off whenever i damn well please and seek a subway. eat sometime in here.
until 3:45 pm - twiddle my thumbs, find outlet for public use to charge camera if dead, go through photos. munch something.
4:30 pm - get out of therapy, head to gym. unless dead. deadness likely. in case of deadness, retire to home area. your walking may be sufficient.

from there, who cares.