pepperoni roll

i literally just posted on PT about this but it's driving me NUTS
i am haunted by the ghost of that delicious corpse. (lolwut)

in my cozy little corner of the world known as manhattan, there's a lovely little pizzeria known as rocco's.
....apparently there's two of them?omgmustcheckout...ANYWAY.
once upon a time, i would enter this respected establishment and order a delicious slice of sausage pizza, and i'd fold it and pick it up and the flimsy crust would flop down enticingly and i would take a bite and the delicious sauce would ooze from beneath the lusciously melted cheese........
sorry, got distracted there. i haven't had pizza in like 4 months. that's like a lot for me. there are pizza places EVERYWHERE here. SO. ANYWAY.
but then, one day, when standing by the counter, preparing to order a delectable slice of pizza, what did my eyes fall upon but a gorgeous bundle of pepperoni and cheese wrapped in a golden crust. "one pepperoni roll please!" i said. and so a beautiful love was born.

seriously, they're sofuckinggood. and the sauce they come with... oh, the sauce. i get two, because one is gone by the time i've devoured half that thing.

last one i had was like two weeks ago but I'M SO ADDICTED TO THEM i need another one soon...
plus my friend's in town and going to rocco's and getting pepperoni rolls is like totally our thing.



but lately, it's been killing me... i can't not know how many calories is in that tasty bomb of awesome.
i don't really remove any foods from my diet... i don't "forbid" myself from having any one food. i just know how much not to eat to make up for it. but i have NO IDEA what to do for this.

i wanna go up to the people behind the counter and ask them if they have a calorie estimate for the pepperoni roll... but a) they probably have no idea and b) i'm way too scared of people overhearing and being like "look at that skinny blonde bitch she's so superficial all she cares about is calories and thinness."

but i'm seriously way irked.
i don't know what to dooooooooooooooooooooooo

and in all honesty, i'm not even afraid to find out how bad they are. they're probably not as bad as i'm estimating them to be.




in other news, i clocked in at 125.6 today. approximately. my scale kept telling me all sorts of different things (including 124.4 fuck you for getting my hopes up, you vicious beast) but that's what it spat at me most often.

in other other news, i have to get up at 11 tomorrow morning. once more, say it with me, LOLWUT.

in other other other news, AD wants me to be better at groveling. i don't know how :(

ALSO. i did indeed do 500 last night. i still kinda felt the ache today :D