i have a habit of lurking on various BMI calculators and just redoing calculations again and again to see what i am, what i have been, and what i want to (will) be.
so i just calculated my BMI again (at 125.8) and it's 18.6. i know that 125 is 18.5. but i decided to see what i was when the scale read the lowest thing it's ever read: 125.6, from just yesterday. and turns out that's also 18.5! i stood on the threshold of healthy/underweight and i was clueless. but now i feel good again.
then i realized, OMG, what if the 18.5 BMI extends lower than 125 lbs! i'll still have more to go before i'm actually underweight! (which, again, is goal number one.)
but i just checked that too and 124.9 is a BMI of 18.4. :) not that i'll see that number, because my scale only uses even decimals.... (?????)
i really am falling deeper. i'm already entranced by being almost underweight....
and this is how it goes. i'm on such a high, then realize how unhealthy my thoughts are, and get a little scared of my mind.
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