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just kidding! it's the middle of the night, why would i be asleep?
i'm actually really tired, but i slept for the vast majority of the day, so i don't feel like sleeping now.

i had the god damn pudding cup. but i was in a semi-binge mood, just thinking about all the food i wanted, so i'm proud of myself for ONLY having one. especially when i even took two out of the fridge. -shakes hands over shoulders like a champion-
i'm really praying it just boosted my metabolism...
i have to remember to drink more water, too. my doctor said so, also. not that i know how he'd known that, considering he'd seen me for all of ten minutes.

i'm uncomfortably grumbly in my tummy now though. i was fantasizing about sandwiches earlier.

i'm going to have three baby carrots. i like the number three.

i just looked up the calories online. 40 for 10, so approximately 12 for three.
..."no healthy alternatives are available for this item yet"
...............of course not, it's a fucking carrot!

om nom

i'm an idiot.


p.s. i realized that even once this current guy goes home, i'm not free from visitors yet. another ex (this one's a bit of a dick though) is coming some time in april, from england. now, he's currently refusing to speak to me, but i have to look good just in case he mans up and faces me after i called him a dick that one time. (and after all the emotional abuse he put me through. ha.) and i don't know when he's visiting, so no time for slack!